nostalgia ata tawag dyan.
He he. "The good old days" ba pre? Ang biglang pumasok sa utak ko ay malamig na pitcher ng SMB+pizza sa Shakey's Manila, spaghetti sa Good Earth Emporium, Arcade games sa Recto, mag-stroll ng nightlife mula Quiapo hanggang Welcome Rotonda or tumagos pa hanggang umabot sa QC, Cubao kung may oras pa he he. Yan yung nostalgia sa akin.
Yung flashbacks kasi ay halu-halong past experience (from good to bad) na nagbibigay ng anxiety and/or depression affecting a persons' emotions. Noong ginamit niya yung salitang "malapit ng mamatay" at "may depression pala ako". May nag-trigger sa kanya noon para maging stressed at isipin ang mga iyan. Maraming dahilan na siya lang ang nakakaalam, di ba?
Automatic reaction yan ng brain, so best is to understand why you are thinking of death and feeling sad/bothered about past memories and do something about it. Marami namang diversion para mawala yung ganyang pakiramdam. Lahat naman tayo meron nyan from simple to worst. Ang kailangan lang ay yung pag-aayos ng ating isipan, emosyon sa pangaraw-araw habang tayo ay nabubuhay. And the best persons to help is the one near you in most cases - your family. Don't keep it to yourself.
Ako, di mabilang na aksidente/karamdaman na halos ikamatay ko, na-coma ng ilang buwan, out-of-body experience, ilang ulit na white light bago bumalik yung conciousness, sangkaterbang-flashbacks na tinatagusan pa ng tao sa paligid ko, may nakikipag-usap na tao sa loob ng utak ko (he he), and living with all forms of depression for decades, Lahat yan, trinato ko as just normal experiences treating them as part of me, my past, and learn to accept - even death! In this way, I know what to think and do when similar cases occur again. We don't really know when death will come. Just be ready when it does.
It's OK to react, be affected by every experience you encounter from past to present. You need to be aware and always be in control of ourselves to bring us back to reality - our normal self.
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